I got too baked and voted no on issue 1

Me and my friends are pro-choice stoners, so we all called off work today to preemptively celebrate victory on both fronts. We met up this morning and smoked a shit ton of pot and played edible roulette— AKA Russian roulette but instead of one bullet it’s one 200mg gummy amongst 5mg ones, and you don’t find out who got “shot” until 2 hours later.

I found out that it was I who had gotten the big gummy pretty much right as we got to the local college which was our precinct. I hadn’t noticed the high creeping up on me until it hit all at once. There was a pretty long line to vote and the fluorescent light above me was flickering which really bothered me and I started to panic a bit. I told my friends I needed to go, as there was no way I was keeping it together and that I would come back later. They told me that I was already here, that all I had to do was check two boxes and essentially strong-armed me into staying.

After an excruciating eternity of waiting in line, I somehow managed to interact with the poll worker and fill out the forms without too many hiccups, though I apparently mistakenly tried to hand my completed paperwork to a construction worker who was just passing through.

Don’t remember how I got to the booth but I was suddenly there. It took me a while to even situate myself in reality— I was staring at the screen and the words and the boxes, mouth agape, trying to figure out what the fuck I was doing. My eyes skipped over the local elections and went straight to Issue 1. That grounded me— I remembered that that was one of the main reasons I was there. I started to read it, and at that very moment I heard a baby crying somewhere in the room. With that as the backdrop, I began to be flooded with vivid and uncomfortable imagery. I started picturing what abortion looked like and imagined the fetus screaming as it was killed and it made me really uneasy and nauseous. It almost seemed like the baby was crying louder and louder the more I read. When I got to the end, I looked at the options and just instinctively pressed “No” and skipped to the end of the ballot and printed it. I didn’t even vote on issue 2 or anything else.

My memory goes kinda in and out after that, but apparently I tried to, like, run out of the precinct with my printed ballot, so my friend had to drag me back to the ballot box.

They all went out to IHOP afterwards but I asked to be dropped off at home. I have been recovering and coming down.

I haven’t been able come to terms with the fact that I voted against Issue 1 and didn’t even vote on 2. I’m really sorry everyone.